Monday, July 20, 2009
I wonder why do i wake up so early in the mornining these few days..Hmph~~
are all mummies like that? Been having fun with xxavier these few days thought he wakes up during the middle of the night and cry for milk and for a nappy change..This little guy has got a habbit of being clean..Hahas =) Cannot have poop in his pampers if not will get irritated..
Today's the 5th day of xxavier's homecomming thought he's already 10 days old..His discharge was delayed as the first day he was not sucking milk properly while the second day they discovered that he had jundice, skin was abit yellowish, a kind of common thing that is seen on newborns..
Remembered the first day when i can be discharged while hearing the news that xxavier could not leave the hospital yet..I was so heart-broken that i broke down at the nursery upon hearing the nurse say that they have to keep xxavier for observation as they need to clean his stomach by inserting a tube in if he cannot drink properly again..I cried even more when i heard that..
Mum was there, asking me not to cry as they said that crying during confirment will make you blind..(I wonder if it is true or just some granny's rummor) How can u not feel anything when he's like inside you for 40weeks and now that he has to suffer like that..Mum was holding on to her tears..I think if she breaks down, i'll feel worse..I remembered asking her, "what if that was me? and the doctors have to put a tube into me? Will you so feel the same as how i feel now? How can i possible not cry?" Also dunno how come i will ask her like that..
So, i was discharged without xxavier thinking that i could come back for him the next day..Everyone was eager to meet him too..The next day, we received a call from the nursery doctor saying that xxavier had jundice and cannot be send home for the next few days has he had to be under the photo light for 24hours and be observed for another 24hours..Felt super heart broken the moment i heard the news as i kept thinking if i was my fault..Everyone who heard the news consoled me and told me that it was not my fault, but how should i dissolve this news?
The next day, i was called into the hospital to do a blood test to check if my blood group was different as xxavier as that was one of the reason that would cause jundice..Went there and was given a chance to feed him milk..The moment i held him in my arms that day, how i wished that i can just hold on to him forever and not let go..The nurses were oso worried about me and kept asking me to not worry so much and try to have more rest..
But now, xxavier is healthy returned into our arms once again..Thank god~!!
are all mummies like that? Been having fun with xxavier these few days thought he wakes up during the middle of the night and cry for milk and for a nappy change..This little guy has got a habbit of being clean..Hahas =) Cannot have poop in his pampers if not will get irritated..
Today's the 5th day of xxavier's homecomming thought he's already 10 days old..His discharge was delayed as the first day he was not sucking milk properly while the second day they discovered that he had jundice, skin was abit yellowish, a kind of common thing that is seen on newborns..
Remembered the first day when i can be discharged while hearing the news that xxavier could not leave the hospital yet..I was so heart-broken that i broke down at the nursery upon hearing the nurse say that they have to keep xxavier for observation as they need to clean his stomach by inserting a tube in if he cannot drink properly again..I cried even more when i heard that..
Mum was there, asking me not to cry as they said that crying during confirment will make you blind..(I wonder if it is true or just some granny's rummor) How can u not feel anything when he's like inside you for 40weeks and now that he has to suffer like that..Mum was holding on to her tears..I think if she breaks down, i'll feel worse..I remembered asking her, "what if that was me? and the doctors have to put a tube into me? Will you so feel the same as how i feel now? How can i possible not cry?" Also dunno how come i will ask her like that..
So, i was discharged without xxavier thinking that i could come back for him the next day..Everyone was eager to meet him too..The next day, we received a call from the nursery doctor saying that xxavier had jundice and cannot be send home for the next few days has he had to be under the photo light for 24hours and be observed for another 24hours..Felt super heart broken the moment i heard the news as i kept thinking if i was my fault..Everyone who heard the news consoled me and told me that it was not my fault, but how should i dissolve this news?
The next day, i was called into the hospital to do a blood test to check if my blood group was different as xxavier as that was one of the reason that would cause jundice..Went there and was given a chance to feed him milk..The moment i held him in my arms that day, how i wished that i can just hold on to him forever and not let go..The nurses were oso worried about me and kept asking me to not worry so much and try to have more rest..
But now, xxavier is healthy returned into our arms once again..Thank god~!!
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